Monday, August 25, 2014

But Wait...It Has Only Been A Week!

Not even...and here I am again!?  A new recent record.

I am aiming for 500 words a day.  I have joined a 31-day writing challenge to write 500 words a day for 31 days.  I  hope to improve and develop my writing skills and the way to do it is to, well, write!

So today's Challenge Guide is to set my goals.  What do I want to write? What is the ultimate outcome that I am looking for?  How often will I write?  And how much?

Well the last questions are the easiest to answer so I will attack them first.  I will write 500 words a day, every day, for 31 days.  A month.  A long month.  You know, the months that have more than 29 or 30 days.  Some of this will be with blogging.  Some of this will be by doing Morning Pages which I try to do daily anyway.  I always get my 500 words in the Morning Pages but I am challenging myself to write an additional 500 words with blogging.  I am finding the weekends when everybody is around to be a challenge.  This weekend I managed the Morning Pages, but not necessarily in the morning.  Saturday night they ended up being Late Night Pages.  But at least I wrote!  Blow the trumpets...the goal achieved.

What do I want to write?  I want to write a blog.  Consistently.  Without letting it die like I let this one die.  The goal floating around my head right now is to not add my writings to this blog like I have been doing, but to start a new blog dedicated to growing my artistic talent (which is pretty miniscule to begin with) and my creativity, and following  my progress and growth as I take various courses in drawing and painting and Zentangling and writing in pursuit of digging out whatever talent might lie within me that is trying to come out.  That was a mouthful!  I will soon be starting that blog but time has been limited the last few days and I didn't want to procrastinate at least starting on my goals any longer.

What is the Ultimate Outcome that I am looking for?  I want to be a writer.  And to be an artist.  I want a positive creative outlet where my soul can spread itself out and express itself instead of being cramped up and stuffed down inside me as it has been for 50 years.  I want to be free...and right now I feel the way to free myself is to express myself.  It may not be so great right now but I hope practice will make perfect and if not perfect it will at least make progress.  I don't know if I can but I am hopeful and that is all I have to go on for now.  I have journaled and written my Morning Pages on and off for years.  It is time to open up and take all of that to a new level.

I have struggled and stammered and stumbled like crazy the last ten or more years.  I am tired of all of that and I am so excited about the freedom of creativity, even if I am not such a creative person yet.  Just writing about it and doing the little things I do towards those goals open up a heart which has felt dead and lifeless for a while now.  I am ready to feel and express and live again.  And find myself along the way.

1 comment:

Kate said...

Jewel! I have stopped blogging, too. In fact, my blog is private right now. But I miss it terribly! We could make a deal - we each write a few times a week (we could decide on a number) and check in with each other. What do you think? Email me at carmiekins at gmail dot com if you're interested. I hope all is well! Kate